Being an idealist and a dreamer, I know the key to happiness for me, is not just living authentically, but to get out of my head and to live it and share it. The thing is, seeing the world in its completely unbalanced state and waking to the sound of traffic and the busyness of this fake construct and economic system the human race is killing itself in, it can be so easy for me to just swallow myself in my thoughts and try to escape it, only to become more deeply troubled by it.

Balance. I think we can only create balance by starting with ourselves. I can be consumed by all that is happening and continue to live my simplistic life on my own and withdrawn from the world, or I can step out and say, this is who I am and this is how I try and make things better. My brain will always work the same way. I will always look at the problems of the world and come back to one thing. I will always see scarcity and suffering as the cost of this fake monetary entity, where people have forgotten how to love and to share, because they are busy fighting for their own survival in a man made system where success is looked upon in relation to material wealth, when we have this amazing planet that can offer abundance if only we stop raping it and start putting back.

My healing place has been my local nature reserve. It is absolutely brimming with life and I feel like I’m in a different world when I am there. Not so many years ago, this beautiful space was a refuse site; land filled with human waste. For me that place is evidence of how amazing nature is and how quickly it can thrive it we let it and stop the taking. I can be walking through, nibbling on a haw berry I have picked, cast away the single stone and wonder if that will settle into the earth, a burgeoning hawthorn bush brimming with abundance in the space of years. One seed, creating a multitude of berries and the ripple effect of constant supply… if only we let it. As a race this basic connection with earth has been lost, and we all need to reconnect to survive as individuals and collectively.

So here I am, in these troubled times. What seed can I sow? What ripple effect can I create? I can continue to be a one man band doing my own thing in a small way, or maybe I can plant a seed in another mind and so on.. At the moment, my body, my situation, wont allow me to walk into the vanishing wilderness and live a money-less life. I have to walk in both worlds. somehow, some way, everyday working with what I’ve got, and with who I am, and all the guidance I have put before me, I have to keep my connection to simplicity and the earth as much as I can in all this madness. I can feel people scrambling for the light in this darkness. I want to do my bit and shine my little bit of light… as I find it.